In Awe

I stand in awe of the incredible creation God has made. Last night, as I was changing Grayson's diaper and hearing Ethan's sighs from his crib I just started to cry. I looked at Chris and just expressed my overwhelming sense of love and thankfulness over the lives of these two boys. I think back over these past months - from the very first moment I saw that + on the pregnancy test and I am amazed with all we have endured and encountered since then to this place now of enjoying our healthy boys at home with us.

I see myself now in a different way, and I see my husband through different eyes. He has always been a strong man - but I never knew the depth of his love for me and all that he was able to handle until we went through the experience of this pregnancy and birth of our twin boys together. I do not look at my sons and take them for granted. I hope I never do. I look into their eyes and see two tiny miracles. I hear their grunts and coos and I am reminded of the days when I laid in bed anxiously awaiting noises such as those.

I always knew through the long days of bed rest that the end result would be worth the anxiety and boredom that those days brought - I just never knew the full extent.

My heart is full and just pours over with love for my precious sons. I am truly humbled that God would grant us with such an incredible gift and to trust Chris and myself with the amazing responsibility of raising these two young men.

I love you Grayson John & Ethan Douglas. I could just squeeze and kiss you forever.

Daddy and Ethan

Grayson

Mama with her boys

Grayson

Ethan